Blogimony 2014: I think I'll testify...'fear is a liar'


As I sit here reflecting on the events of my life my life,
I am reminded of these two things: 


AND


Let me...testify!
About a month ago, I gave a presentation to a group of nearly
 500 breast cancer survivors about what my agency was doing 
to help them have better lives. 
As I stood on that platform, I was inspired.
I spoke passionately about the issue... 
I was a champion
I came alive on the stage;
It was amazing for me.
I was in my lane. 
I could feel it.

Yesterday, I led a meeting of thought leaders, doctors, and advocates 
in the breast cancer community about how we can best address 
the issue of breast cancer in young women. 
I stood and represented my agency, answered questions, 
and had a lot of thought provoking conversations. 
We were looking for solutions...
it was awesome...
I was in my lane.

Big deal right? 
Ummm...no.
...this is a HUGE deal! 
for years...like since childhood...
I suffered from paralyzing stage fright;
the kind that gave me panic attacks when I thought about speaking in public;
the kind that caused me to sometimes cry...yes...CRY during presentations; 
the kind that made me choke on my words;
the kind that caused me to hyperventilate;
the kind that made my skin go pale...
the kind that made folks in the room nervous that I was gonna faint;
yeah...that kind of stage fright. 
I suffered for years...all the way through graduate school.
it was horrible. 

...the source of it all...fear. 
I struggled from a crippling kind of fear;
fear of being seen...of being exposed...
as though I was guilty of something that I could not name.
It was terrible and I was captive to it.
but things have changed. 
I have learned the truth
...'fear is a liar'. 

fear will tell you lies about who you are
and who others think you are;
fear will choke out your voice and silence your cause if you let it.
but you can't let it. 
fear will cause you to run from an imaginary enemy...
and feel guilty for things that you never did.
fear knows no truth and runs opposite to love.
'fear is a LIAR'

so what changed me?
UNCONDITIONAL LOVE 
Love chased out fear;
presented me with truth;
gave me a voice; 
helped me to know that I am loved and powerful;
empowered me to stand;
and encouraged me to speak. 

and so today, I testify.
I testify about the unconditional love of God;
I testify about overcoming my fears of public speaking;
I testify about being a voice for those who cannot yet speak for themselves.

fear is a liar...

but WE ARE POWERFUL.

Love you much, 

6 comments

  1. Amen! I use to be this way as well not paralyzed anymore but a little nervous. I am the speaker next month for a school. I will be speaking to the girls and I am a little nervous but I have a lot to give them.

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  2. Amen Sis! God has a way for sure! Who ever thought that we would be standing on his behalf speaking his words of encouragement and wisdom and love to others and for others! Praying for you as you go forward! Onward in Christ!

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  3. Dr. Temeika you are a Awesome speaker. I have been privileged to hear you speak more than once and I must say you are great at what you do. Thank you for being you

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  4. Thank you Adrian! It was certainly an honor!

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  5. You are not alone in your triumph in overcoming fear, sis! I applaud you and encourage you to keep on conquering the enemy. We shall overcome him by the blood of the Lamb and the words of our testimonies, blogimonies, etc!

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  6. Yes Melita! We shall overcome...

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